i feel like venting some grieves, pouring some woes.
i wanted a place where no one will go to.
and i guess this is it.

well even if someone come along and finds out,
it's all too late already.
like i always say, if you do it only when i say it, it's meaningless to me already.
worse, now it's about i've said it already and u are treating it as meaningless.

if this blog reflects the team, i think it does.
if this team repesents the team,
i really pity the fools who even tried to make it work.

i hate the people who destroy me.
i hate the people who destroyed my heart for this team.
i hate the people who still can live every day in this team with no guilt/repent.
F*** Y**

but why am i punishing the fools who tried to make it work.
i know i am punishing the fools for not feeling excited to see them like last time.
i know i am punishing myself for not feeling excited to see them not everyday.

i am sorry fools, that i ever thought of ditching you.
i am sorry fools, that i spent so much time & effort trying to change those hateful lots.
i am sorry fools, and i know i am a fool now.

i repent by swearing that i'll try to make it work for you fools, even without those hateful lots.
i repent by swearing that i'll spent more quality time with you fools, than those hateful lots.
i repent by swearing that i won't be a fool ever to bother about those hateful lots.

1 man is able to make me bring the team to hell.
fortunately another is able to make me detour.
now, who's following me??